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Name: Adam
Country: United States
State: Florida
Metro: Tampa Bay Area
Gender: Male
Interests: Music is wonderful; playing guitar or listening to cd's. I also enjoy painting things and writing. I danced in the broadway musical, Cats, 73 times. If you want to know the bands I like, just look at the Currently Playing above each of my entrys. I enjoy too many kinds of music to think of right now. Go to the links I put at the very bottom of the site.
Expertise: (ekspûr-tez)noun;
1.Expert advice or opinion.
2.Skill or knowledge in a particular area.
Occupation: Student
Industry: Turning myself inside out
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AIM:  NauseousBeauty
Yahoo:  Fizzwinkel@yahoo.com
Member Since:
9/22/2004
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| My wisdom teeth were removed yesterday; I was scared as hell until they gave me the IV, then I was out for an hour. (It felt like minutes) I was prescibed hydrocodone for pain, but have only been taking it minimally of course; saving up for some big doses in the future  . In the beginning, when I didn't take it, I was crying in pain, so needless to say I couldn't save all the pills. Another shitty part about wisdom teeth is that I bled enough blood to fill the Kool-aid man...yes that is blood in him...childrens blood. Oh, and my cheeks are balloon sized, so I can fly...which according to tyler makes me dumbo.
I was going to rant about how are brains are quite contradicting but my mood lightened up.
30 days is a great show, you should see it! When I say you, I mean what I say, thats what i mean! I also saw Big Trouble which was a really, really good movie. Oh, and see Supersize Me too!!!!!1111one
The kitties are playing hide and go seek...silly kitties...I love kitties. (many of you know the tone of voice i use when I refer to the kitties). Kitty!
Fuck myspace, xanga is better!!
PS: just kidding lauren
PSS: actually I wasnt kidding, i really do like xanga better
PSSS: that doesn't mean you have to get mad lauren
PSSSS: Lauren! It's just my opinion!
PSSSSS: im going to make a pyramid with psss
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| Date: Friday, May 6
Substances: Marijuana & Psilocybe cubensis; 3 medium caps, 4 small
Setting: In my house
My friend brought up the idea of shrooming early in the day and I was contemplating it all through school. It had been raining off and on for the last couple of days and it was bright & sunny now; we decided to go. We drove off to the field with high hopes but didn't have much luck for awhile. We would find a small patch here and there but it took us an hour to find enough to provide each of us a trip. We were both starving, and decided that we had enough shrooms so he dropped me off back at my house. (My friend is actually grounded so I couldn't share this trip with him.) I decided on doing the shrooms that night and was extremely excited since I hadn't done shrooms in over a year. I asked my mom her plans for the night and discovered that she would be gone for the next 4 hours. (That's always a beautiful thing to hear.)  Once she left, I went to work preparing the tea and quickly drank it.
I felt the onset in a hurry and a slight amount of nausea to go along with it. I decided on some bud to clear out the nausea and as I prepared a bowl, I noticed the floor and walls getting wavy. Smoking really eased me into the experience and made the beginning quite peaceful. For the next hour or so, I remember wandering around my house, staring at anything and everything because all colors seemed so miraculous. It was like seeing colors for the first time. I enjoyed how everything warped, shifted, and waved and I wanted to reach out and touch the waves. There were no patterns that I can recall.
The next thing I know, the doorbell rings. I, of course am startled as hell but am very curious to see who is at the door. I go galloping full speed to the door and peer out the window; friends! I opened the door to welcome them but my friend F's speed talking overwhelms me. He mentioned something about borrowing my car to get cigarettes from the store. I grab the keys without thinking and hand them over; he then asks me to come along. I hop in the back-seat and we pull away. I don't quite remember when it happened, but I started getting extremely paranoid and the only thing I was thinking of is getting home before my mother did. I nagged F until he finally took me home to my empty house. I really wanted to be alone again and decided it would be best if they left.
The relief of lonesome was glorious, and then next thing on my list of things to do was watch a movie. "I Heart Huckabees" was sitting out, and I had never seen it. I popped it in and began quite an exciting journey. For those of you who have not seen "I Heart Huckabees", WATCH IT!! This movie is incredible and quite a mindfull, even when you are sober I'm told. The movie sent me on an introspective quest, where I feel that I gained more enlightenment than any other drug-induced or sober experience in my past. The following is what I wrote down the next day, concluding what I learned:
"There are 3 levels of existence and humans are stuck in the middle. The first level would be animals other than humans. They don't have the brain power to question existence and for that they are blessed. They can go through life with there basic needs of food, water, and sleep and be perfectly happy. Humans are the next level up, we continually question our purpose in life (like we really need one) and we all must know what happens when we die & why everything works the way it does. Fighting over beliefs will probably be the cause of our extinction. The final, third level of existence, I believe is attained when you die or at certain instances in your life where you feel no other need than to simply be. This can be attained through drugs but you are always sucked back in by stupid human concerns when the high or trip ends. I suppose this third level has been attained permanently by some who have been "enlightened" (thinking from a religious viewpoint) such as the Dalai Lama. I think that all creatures obtain this third state (that I like to call oneness) when they die; they are finally shut off and can now become a part of the earth. As for the existence theory, I don't think the infinity theory is correct, but I put my faith in the "blanket" theory (if you have seen "I Heart Huckabees"). It sort of states that we are all connected as one, all life, inanimate objects, stars, molecules etc. When you squeeze your fist really hard, you can feel that oneness with the air and all that is around you by the wrapping of that energy around and around into that one central point. (That was quite a discovery for me while tripping  ) Falling in love is a great way of numbing yourself and probably the best way to get through life though it can bring out many ugly human emotions if something goes wrong. I find myself questioning "why do I need to think like that", "why must I do this", and "why do I need to feel these emotions"...but it's all rather simple; we are all so extremely influenced and brainwashed since birth to think the way we do, to feel the need to stay healthy and live as long as possible, to feel the need to experience certain emotions from certain things. In the end, I realize that I will just go back to sleep in my fake wonderland and wake up and be a zombie, acting how I have been taught to act and experiencing what I'm told to experience. It's all kind of pathetic but that's how it goes...you just have to make the best of it."
I believe these thoughts were brought on by more than "I Heart Huckabees". I also currently read a book entitled "Feed" by M.T. Anderson that I STRONGLY recommend to all. I still find myself questioning "why" much more than usual and it's something I really thank these mushrooms for: giving me a completely different viewpoint towards existence. I have had psychedelic experiences before but have never gained such a wisdom from them. Mushrooms are my new favorite substance and I strongly recommend their usage.
Peace to all and Happy Tripping
"Life is like walking from one side of infinite darkness to another, on a bridge of dreams." | | |
| Some quotes from "Fahrenheit 451"; it was a really good book. (I was too lazy to type them out)
 
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| Tragically, Mitch Hedberg passed away on March 30, 2005. Mitch was a beloved member of the Comedy Central family, and we join with his fans in our sadness. He will be missed.
Born and raised in the St. Paul area, Mitch Hedberg decided to start his own comedy career in South Florida. Not so much for the comedy scene, but for the sun. His landlord would drive him up and down the coast from club to club in his pick-up truck where Mitch would lie down in the back to avoid any of the negative conversations his landlord would try to have with him.
Mitch developed his style in Florida and decided to try it out on different audiences. He moved to Seattle and toured throughout the Pacific Northwest honing his act in front of the new audiences. While in Los Angeles, Mitch booked his first television appearance on MTV's "Comikaze" by walking into the MTV offices and personally pitching himself to the talent coordinator. Many cable shows followed including A&E's "Comedy on the Road," Comedy Central's "Comedy Product," and NBC's "Comedy Showcase" hosted by Louie Anderson.
In 1996, Mitch got his break with an invitation to perform at the prestigious Just for Laughs Montreal International Comedy Festival. His performances secured him a deal with a studio and a spot on "The Late Show with David Letterman." Letterman enjoyed the set so much that he actually quoted one of Mitch's bits later in the show.
Mitch's stand-out performances on the Letterman show (on which he appeared 10 times) and at comedy festivals secured a development deal with FOX to create his own sitcom and prompted TIME magazine to proclaim him "the next Seinfeld" and The Hollywood Reporter to headline their review of the Festival, "Laughs are Loudest for Hedberg."
Mitch also released two popular comedy CDs, "Strategic Grill Locations" and "Mitch All Together," and he wrote and directed a film, "Las Enchiladas!" which had its premiere at the Sundance Film Festival.
Known for his dry, observational wit and low-key style, Mitch Hedberg was a master of turning everyday details into brilliant one-liners:
"I got my hair highlighted, because I felt some strands were more important than others."
"I wish I could play little league now. I'd be way better than before."
"I think pickles are cucumbers that sold out."
"A severed foot is the ultimate stocking stuffer."
While he was frequently compared to the comedian Stephen Wright, Mitch's style was indelibly unique and never could be imitated. He was truly one of a kind.
Unlike many comics who shy away from their fans' attention, Mitch welcomed it. His official website encouraged fans to send in pictures of themselves posing with Mitch at his shows. One published anecdote tells of Mitch meeting a group of college students at a recent show in Florida who mentioned the stifling heat of their dorm room. Mitch knocked on their door the next morning with a brand-new air conditioner.
Mitch Hedberg was popular among his peers and had many friends in the comedy community. The Minneapolis Star-Tribune quoted close friend and comedian Doug Stanhope of The Man Show as saying "He was the greatest comedian ever."
Mitch passed away in March, 2005 at the age of 37.
RIP  RIP | | |
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There's a snake in my boots! Hoohoho, just kidding! My dinner tonight will probably leave me with a sugar overdose since it consisted of candy, browny batter, more candy, then brownies. Needless to say my valentines day was lovely. A singing telegram was sent to my 4th period class as I sat half awake staring at the newspaper and I was sung "Aint no mountain highhh enough, aint no....". Thats all I remember, hopefully you can fill in the rest. I later found out it was sent by my good pal nick despite the singers telling me it was from "love kitten".
Recently I have been riding in a car lost in St. Petersburg, trying to arrange a day trip, and puking. Actually that last one was only Thursday when I went home from school during 1st period quite ill.
I'm seeing Wilco on Wednesday! I've been looking forward to that for awhile.
Hmmm...I need more candy.
Here is something I wrote last Wednesday but never got around to posting. I was listening to Boards of Canada and got rather creative:
"We didn't need perfection, we hardly had to think for ourselves." Through this black hole of perfection lays a society monitored for all to live happily. My visit to this society was a large mistake and what I saw came off as horrific to my eyes. About 30 feet above the ground were hovering orbs of an indistinguishable color. They were spaced about 10 feet apart from each other in all directions. I quickly realized there was no color on this planet. Things appeared gray for the most part but different...everything had a sort of strobe effect on my brain. I later learned that these colors weren't perceivable by my species...lighter than white and darker than black. The orbs in the sky were apparently some sort of surveillance of which I never learned the exact details of, but I saw numerous "beings" levitate off the earth at what seemed to be the will of the orbs. I thought this was a planet of robots at first but soon realized it was anything but; these were all identical beings with twice the brain capacity of humans. They were harvested under the planets crust and taught nothing but being happy and staying orderly. I couldn't understand how this race was happy but it began to make more sense to me. When your taught that being happy is staring at a wall, then that could be the most euphoric experience imaginable. If things keep progressing in a society to try and please people to a greater extent than before, we will never be truly happy. To be happy, you must be at a simplistic state, blocking out the "updates" of new and exciting methods of pleasure, be happy that you exist at all, be happy that you have nature to be apart of.
The planet described in the beginning is not what I want, you would be too used to the same happiness and people would rebel. The strive for happiness is what I want; when you wait for something, it is always so much better. I will strive for this happiness at simply "being" so that when it comes, it will be the most joyous event of my life.
No, I wasn't tripping, I was just really deep into a trance while listening to Boards of Canada and decided to start writing.
Anyway, I hope everyone had a candy filled day.
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